They say it gets better with time.. Im still waiting

Birth, Death. Beauty, Pain. 

A year ago I would have thought this post makes no sense, of course a lot changes in one year.

Does anybody know how long it takes to get better? No this isn’t rhetorical, seriously do you?

I would say how long it takes to mend a broken heart. But I fear its more than that.

To take on a relationship, an incorporation of your lifestyles, your future planned together.

Then its gone.Suddenly.Harshly. 

And nothing I do can bring him back. 

Its not just my heart that needs mending its my soul

They say it gets better with time but I’m still waiting.

Im really too young to be feeling this old

Contemplating my life

Im not sure if I believe in karma, but I do believe what goes up must come down

Seems impossible not to:

The good and the bad

The beautiful and the ugly

The laughter and the tears

Why does it seem I take one step forward with my life only to take two back 

Is it cynical of me to constantly be prepared for the worst

Im really too young to be feeling this old